unearthing happiness.

Since I'm starting anew, I find that it'll be hard for me to write something because I love to procrastinate a lot (sometimes I got easily distracted, so I ended up forgetting it). So, I went to Pinterest and found some interesting ideas on what to write. I think it is a brilliant idea to use them as I can do some self-reflection while writing. Plus, I also love to read my old entries, so it'll benefit me in the future as I could see how much I've grown. Dear future me, hello there.

For this first entry, I'd like to write about 'What has made you the happiest lately?'

This is actually a tough question for me. All questions are tough for me. But this one does make me sit back and think for a while. I'm rummaging through my mind's folder to see what makes me the happiest person lately. Is it spending time with friends? Fair enough. I do feel happy, but it's actually temporary. As soon as I get home, my world becomes grey again. So, is it that there's no academic pressure as I am on semester holiday? Heck, I actually miss that feeling of getting pressured. I want to be stressed about having to study. Weird. So, is it because I am able to play games without interruption? Who says that? Who says that I don't get interrupted? Bzzz, wrong. Next!

I honestly don't know. I don't even know if I am happy right now. My life feels empty like it has no purpose, no direction. Maybe. Maybe all of those things I've mentioned earlier do make me the happiest lately. I got to meet my best friends and friends from high school. Watching the movies that people are hyping right now, which are Barbie and Oppenheimer. I even watched Barbie for the second time just so I could spend time with my high school friends. That's how precious they are to me. Or maybe, I am finally learning something in my life; that I should be grateful for Allah's creations. And again, another maybe, I've discovered the new side of me. I do feel at ease right now. A little bit, at least. That's fine, right? It is fine.

So, what I can say is, the littlest things made me the happiest. It's just that I'm realizing it too late. But I'm glad that now I know.